Alright, I went to Bowling Green on Thursday to go visit the guy that I am dating, Mitchell. We have been seeing each other for about a month and a half now. I like him, but I am still having feelings about my ex. I know he has feelings about his ex too. But, to top the story off, two weeks AFTER Mitch and I started to see each other, both of our exs start to date. Both mitch and I along with other people think that they are doing it on purpose to find a way to get back at Mitch and me. I am still not sure what to think about the whole situation.
I like Mitch, but there are many things that seem to be a problem in the relationship to me. Ok, I still like my ex and he likes his ex. He has not said it, but I know it. The main issue is when Mitch drinks, he is not a nice person and he drinks until he does not know his name. I do not even like being around him and I try everyway I can to ignore him and get away from him when I realize he has gone pass his point. I have put up wi it and have said something to him FIVE times. The fifth time, this past weekend, I went home and I told him that we could not work with what was going on. He knows that he is really messing up, but I am not sure if he knows how to fix it. He was used to being treated like crap by his ex and he did whatever he wanted, but now things are different. I demand rspect in a relationship. I don't wanted to be treated like I am a piece of crap. When he drinks, he is a different person because he is mean and smetimes he can get physical. As I am writing this, he is sending texts to me tell me ow sorry he is, that he realized what he has done and how much he upset me numerous times. I kep looking at the situation by seeing the pros and cons. I know that he likes me and that he haa huge heart. He already cares about my feelings more than my ex ever did.
I think about my ex all the time. I do not want to tell him how I feel because I do not want to look like a pathetic idiot. i am not sure how he feels about me now either... I spent two years liking this kid and I really though I was going to be with him for a long time. Thee were too many things that got between us. I had some medical issues, which I later got made fun of by him, our friend Julie liked being the third wheel in our relationship and he did not get the concept of only two people are in a relationship. There was also some issues with his parents who just found out he is gay. They did not take it very well and walked all over him the entire summer. Now see, my ex gave me the answer that we both needed to just "work" on ourselves. I though this was true, but the more I thought about it and saw what happened I new he made that up. He wanted to be able to sleep around with people at BG without having to worry about a boyfriend. Within the first week f him being back at BG, he was fooling around with three people! GROSS! For some strange reason, I still like him. I still cannot believe that he is now dating Mitch's ex. Thats should top it off, but it doesn't.
When I am at a party wth Mitch and his ex is there, his ex likes to tell him how much he misses him, how he loves him and that he cannot believe that he is dating me. The best partis he says he is miserable. In a way I feel bad for me ex I also found out that his ex is on craigslist and that that he has cheated on my ex already. (I am trying not to use names).
There is just a lot that I need to think over. I am an unemployed, college graduated tweny one year old living at home until I can totally get my life together!
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